This afternoon I have to go to the NatWest bank in Bideford and withdraw the balance of what used to be my account... if they let me.
There should be no reason why not, but then again until two days ago there was no reason for them to cancel my account.
If I can't get the money, I will have to start selling things.
We are going to the AES bug show this weekend, and I hope we will make enough money from selling `Exotic Pets` to tide us over. If we don't I really don't know what we shall do.
I feel that I am only feet away from an abyss - an abyss that I have not sensed for many years. At the moment I am terrified. My life has been turned upside down, and I am so disorientated that I really don't know what is real at the moment.
This should be an exciting experience for a fortean, who has spent his life looking at surreal mega-possibilities, but it isn't. I feel physically sick, and I really don't know what the future has to offer.
We are away until saturday night, so don't worry if this is the last blog for a time.
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